about pathetically charming

                                                         




i'm amanda, a 24 year old marketer, and software partner a very small part. i have worked in advertising for nine years and owned my own local advertising company for 3 years. i have since moved on to greener pastures. during that time i  also worked in food, retail and the resort industry. welcome to my blog!  i like to make things special or in some cases simple, that is why i try to inspire through clothes, hair, food my mistakes/findings and the everyday mundane. pathetically charming is a blog about... you guessed it my pathetically charming life. i say that because i recently moved back home with my parents. (in their 4,600 square foot house. i have 2,000 square feet to myself. "we are practically roommates i try to tell myself lies or that space would just be sitting empty if i weren't occupying it".)


                                                     mom                                   &                                     pops


the honest truth is i needed to move back home to save, and figure out how to get out of the ghetto apartment i was in. (robbed in the first month after i moved in. i suspect the "mover" who i was "seeing" at the time.) i could have gotten a roommate and still lived in another apartment somewhere else "ghetto." but i have trust issues. who wants their clothes, movies, and gadgets borrowed? or dishes/messes to clean up after? certainly not my spoiled suburban ass. 


the real pathetic part


i'm finally just over an on/off  relationship breakup that has had** gone on for 8ish years. i was a *baby kitten when we started. after a year of serial dating on pof a truly great site that has found both my siblings marriages. it works wonders if your not a cynical perfectionist with a mate "wish list" longer than...idk the wall of china. so, i ditched dating and decided to really heal and focus on making my life better. i also date my parents. that's right i said date my parents! they take my pathetic ass to the movies or dinner or varies other entertainment. i should be ashamed of this pathetic fact, but i'm not. shameless just like my favorite show. we all enjoy it. they are/were empty nesters and i make them laugh. i'm also a big family girl. utah values, what can i say they were indoctrinated into me since i was born. this is my road to recovery so to speak. i had a relationship ephinophy in december and i haven't looked back since! new home, new look, new job, new life! i have had some amazing realizations along the way and i hope to help other stalker/neurotic women. keep in mind when i say stalker i mean 10-30% you can't stalk the willing.... 


stalking


in 2009 i broke up with the "love of my life" our relationship was what you would call a roller coaster or tornado. we met in middle school dated on and off until 2010 and talked/fantasized till end of 2011. he played baseball, he was going to be a "big star" and moved away to go to school and peruse his dream. after our 2009 break up (through email i might add i'm terrible with goodbyes and i use to be a wretched girl) i had a mini genius moment where i realized that i never really opened up my heart to let him in. previously i had mostly blamed him. except when i wasn't blaming him because i pinned after him. you on/off girls know the drill so i delicately started building my bridge back to him the fall of 09. things were going well! so well that i knew, just knew we would be together again. just like an addict. we discussed our christmas plans we planned on seeing each other again during the holidays. how we missed each other etc. also, he'd been my best friend for years so we had always had something... in feburary of 2010 i had a major blow out with my parents. one so big i really didn't speak with my pops for almost a year. which is major for me i decided to leave the state! i hated utah, hated the culture, hated the people, etc. what i needed was a fresh start. i owned my own advertising company, i could take it anywhere. so i decided to go.... 


                                                  me lugging all my belongings to the mid-west alone.






to omaha. i know what your thinking omaha? omaha! see i still wanted to be near  some family and my aunt and uncle seemed nice enough. they would let me crash at there home in elkhorn suburbia until i found my own place. omaha your still asking? well catcher, we'll call him that. catcher conveniently lived in iowa a short four and a half hours away. i was moving to find myself. 50% true i was moving to get out of utah and experience the world. melodramatic but still  30% true. i was moving to spread out my business and try it in a new state. reaching now, 10% true, i could be near catcher. i tell myself that is the last 10%. to make a very long story just a bit shorter i moved to omaha hated every thing about omaha/iowa except catcher & thunder /lightning storms. i missed my people/community. i missed utah. yes i'm so glad i left or i never would have appriciated what a great state i really have. as for my business it was going ok/as expected. but since i hated almost everything wind, day rain, omaha men, omaha shopping, omaha style (they don't um.. really dress up much. more on that in the ex files) i decided to come back home. lets be really honest, though catcher and i had some good times out there, it was clear catch and i weren't going to work out. 


that's the skinny. laugh, enjoy and relate. 
xo, a


more about catcher in the ex files


*baby kitten - a teenager or young adult.

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